Prologue | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 |
Chapter 3 (Special Chapter) |
Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Epilogue
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IRIDESCENT POST #170: EPILOGUE
IRIDESCENT POST #169: cypher & Fam takes a break to travel
IRIDESCENT POST #167: weekly date, babysitting rotation
IRIDESCENT POST #165: kookie babysits cypher kids
IRIDESCENT POST #164: the twins want to be like appa
IRIDESCENT POST #163: yoonmin has twins!
IRIDESCENT POST #162: yoonmin is married
IRIDESCENT POST #161: cypher & fam
IRIDESCENT POST #160: a peak into their vacation
IRIDESCENT POST #159: privacy please!
IRIDESCENT POST #158: Now, that's yoonmin
IRIDESCENT POST #157: JUNGKOOK IS A VICTIM
IRIDESCENT POST #156: AND WE'RE BACK!
“Go away,” Jimin said from the other side of the door.
“I can’t, I’m your date, remember?” Yoongi said, palm flat and forehead leaning head against the door.
“I do but it seems it was you who forgot,” Jimin spat.
“Jimin, she was dancing with US,” Yoongi said.
“No, she was grinding at you and you liked it so much you didn’t even notice I left,” Jimin said.
“She was just… putting a show for everyone, it was funny watching her. It didn’t mean anything to me, Jimin. Come on, everyone was cheering. It was just entertaining but… Jimin, please, please open the door,” Yoongi begged.
Several seconds passed before he hears some shuffling from Jimin’s side until finally the doorknob clicks. Yoongi turns it and pushes the door open to a pouting Jimin, leaning against the wall.
God, what he wouldn’t give to kiss those lips again.
Jimin is tearing his bow tie to pieces and if Yoongi isn’t so distracted by Jimin’s thick lips and swollen eyes, he would be royally impress because that’s a Gucci tie. Those things were made to outlast gravity.
“I’m sorry,” Yoongi said. It’s not that he has nothing else to say. He has one year of things to say all bottled up inside, mostly consisting of how much he loves Jimin but he can’t say those things now. Right before he left from the tour, he promised Jimin he will never insist on getting back together again with him. It was the only thing he could do to make Jimin at least talk with him. He is not about to break another promise to his JImin.
“Do you like her ass?” Jimin asked.
“It’s not,” Yoongi exclaimed even before he could actually think of an answer. He sighs. “She has a nice ass. I don’t particularly like it and I don’t particularly hate it. I am very neutral to it.” I like yours though is what Yoongi actually wanted to say in the end but held back.
“Tell me what I can do to make it up,” Yoongi said.
There’s a ‘you broke my heart’ hidden in those words and Yoongi thinks heart is breaking again. Amazing, considering it was shattered into pieces the minute Jimin broke up with him.
“We’re just friends now,” Jimin said.
Yoongi thinks universe is crushing him. ‘We’re not together’ is swirling around him like a tornado and it’s shredding him to pieces. He might never be whole again and he thinks he deserves that.
So, he steps back and leans against the staircase steel handrails and closes his eyes because that’s what he needs to keep himself from reaching out to Jimin to kiss him. Jimin is still leaning against the wall, probably six feet away from him but it feels like a lightyear away. He doesn’t know how long he can bear it.
He keeps his eyes tightly shut. Maybe if he keeps it close the world will disappear. He will be left all alone in the world and he will be free to scream his love for Jimin.
Then a hand cups his cheeks. He opens his eyes and Jimin is just a few inches away from him.
“I’m sorry. I’m so immature. I am always acting like a baby when I’m with you. Sorry,” Jimin said, rubbing his thumb against his cheek gently before pulling back and turning to the door. “Let’s go back.”
And here is the thing, Yoongi thinks that his promise can fuck itself in the ass.
He grabs Jimin’s wrist and pulls the boy towards him and he kisses him, his other hand cupping Jimin’s cheeks. And oh god, oh god. He shouldn’t be doing this but he can’t stop himself because he misses those thick lips. He misses those those chubby cheeks. He misses that breezy sweet natural smell of Jimin’s body. He misses Jimin. And maybe he will regret this but he just need to have this now because he swears, he swears his chest will explode if doesn’t let all this affection out of his body.
So he lets himself go. As gentle as he could manage. He kisses Jimin, allowing his lips to dance against the boy’s lips, licking ever so gently. He could feel it, he could feel himself wanting more and he knows… he knows he shouldn’t. This is a stretch in itself because it was Jimin who broke up with him. It was Jimin who said he wasn’t happy anymore. It was Jimin who wanted freedom.
So Yoongi pulls away but he doesn’t let the boy go, their forehead touches and he knows Jimin is looking at him even though his eyes are still closed.
Fuck his promise.
“I miss you,” Yoongi whispered. “Please… please take me back. I promise I’ll do better this time. I promise I’ll try harder. I promise to stop being a jerk. I was selfish and unreasonable. I promise I won’t be anymore. Please, Jimin. Please take me back.”
Jimin’s breathe hitches and he freezes for a good five seconds before pulling back.
“I didn’t break up with you because you were a jerk. I broke up with you because I wasn’t making you happy anymore,” Jimin said.
Yoongi opens his eyes. Jimin is pressed between him and the wall. He doesn’t even know how they moved to this position.
“Jimin, all you have to do is breathe to make me happy,” Yoongi said, shocked at Jimin for thinking otherwise.
“We were… I just always made you angry. No matter what I did, I always upset you,” Jimin said. “And that wasn’t what I wanted. I wanted to make you happy, not angry and if I wasn’t doing that, then there was no point of me being your boyfriend.”
“I was stupid,” Yoongi said, sighing. He takes Jimin’s hand, he misses that too. He plays with them as he tries to form the words to these thoughts he should have told Jimin a long time ago. “I just couldn’t handle not having you all the time.”
“But we were never together all the time, hyung. You were touring. For a time, I was in Detroit and you were here,” Jimin said. “You had your own life and I had mine.”
“Yeah but whenever I wanted to spend time with you, all I had to do was call. I was so used to me being your only world. I didn’t realize you were still a kid, you were growing up. You needed to pursue your own passion the way I did and it’s all because I was a jerk, immature, stupid, selfish, prick…”
“You’re still my only world, hyung. You were always my world. Writing and drawing are just… things I like doing but they are not my priority. It was you, it was always you. It is still you.”
“Don’t cry,” Jimin said, wiping Yoongi’s tears he didn’t even know he had. “Don’t cry.”
Jimin smiles, “I’m glad.”
Jimin kisses his cheek, gently, still cupping his other cheek. God, that gentleness.
“I never even tried getting over you. I knew it was useless,” Jimin whispered.
Yoongi can’t hold back anymore, taking Jimin’s hand to his lips for a gentle kiss, “Will you take me back now?”
Jimin looks at him fondly, as if memorizing every inch of his face.
“Just promise me one thing, hyung,” Jimin said.
“Jimin…”
“Shhhh,” Jimin smiles, as he puts his index finger on Yoongi’s lips. “I love you, Yoongi. I love you so much sometimes I think my heart will explode. I love you so much that the only way I could be happy… the only way I could even have a shot at being happy is if you are. So, if a time comes when I can’t make you happy anymore, promise me, you’ll tell me.”
“Jimin, that’s impossi…”
“Promise me, hyung, promise me you’ll tell me.”
Yoongi knows it’s impossible because all Jimin has to be is himself and Yoongi feels like he is the happiest man on Earth but he understands Jimin because he feels the exact same way.
“I promise,” Yoongi said
And so finally, finally… Jimin pulls him for a kiss.
Jimin is here, in his arms and Jimin’s lips are on his. And Jimin is moaning in his kiss. And Jimin. Jimin is his again.
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